Gambling with Life!

During my backsliding years I did some things that I definitely should not of done; but I was caught up (mesmerized) to the degree that I was willing to take the risk, basically Gambling with my life. I created excuses for my risky deeds, such as: "the money is good " or "God understands me" and "God will forgive me, so I'm not worrying about it." I even went as far as justifying some of my actions as being in the will of God, as the saying goes "oh what a tangled web we weave." I was mentally backsliding away from God, yet God never left me; I was willing to Gamble with my life for some type of man made compensation via money, acceptance, or material thin